Waiting for the world to change

I have not been feeling my self lately. I'm impeccably sad at the moment. And I don't know how to talk about it. Weird 360 degree feeling. I'm just a tad bit unfocused and stressed lately. I wish that she would stop being a cold hard bitch. She fucking crossed the line yesterday and that's all I'm gonna say. I am not as stupid as you'd like to think I am. Hell nooo ! For one I realized what you're capable of. You're a HYPOCRITE ! Why must you be so fucking ignorant and judgemental ? Why bother wasting all your time trying to be ' my crying shoulder ' when you actually don't give a fuck. OH WAIT ! Isn't that what you always do ? You first pretend that you care about every fucking shit, then bitch about me to HIM, THEM, or whoever, then you walk away. And when you come back, you pretend that nothing had ever happened. I though that I could trust you. I thought that we were in the same fucking position. How could you do this to me ? How could you twist this shit and put the blame on me ? Why are you telling me that I fucking RUINED our relationship ? I'm sorry I lied before. That was like months ago. I lied for a reason ok. I lied because you fucking betrayed me. everyone has a reason for lying. For god's sake, everyone LIES ! You're a betrayer and you're that's that. You have no right to judge me because you have no fucking idea what I'm going through right now.

GET REAL bitch !